There are many things you do in a garden to make it beautiful and healthy. Let’s make a quick list.
Spraying for bugs
That’s a lot of gardening.
I like the planting best, but the problem is I can’t plant until all of those hard things are done~first.
My yard is really shaping up and getting ready for all the lovely buds and potential fruit or flowers. I’ve invested about three or four hours a few days a week for a month.
I’ve weeded and raked in rain, wind, sleet and sun, determined to get my garden ready and not pay someone else to do it. I’ve hedged and pruned until my arms feel like they might fall off.
However, I can’t be in the garden without God whispering to my heart the things He has in store for me to get me ready for growth too.
I resist growth.
I think it’s because I equate growth with pain.
Is there truth in this statement or am I just being fearful?
When God says He prunes you, how can that not hurt?
John 15:2-He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.
What does He want to “cut off” and what does He want to “prune”?
The answer comes very readily. He’s been preparing my heart so I am not surprised what I hear Him say.
He wants to cut off my self-reliance. OUCH! Why does this hurt?
I am a survivor. I work hard and fast and get things done. I’m that way at home and at work. I know how to persevere and very few are more determined than me. Oops! PRIDE!! That’s part of the reason why it has to go.
These ingrained traits-not bad things necessarily, cause me to put more trust in myself than God.
He wants to be my strength. He wants me to depend on Him and trust Him more.
1 Corinthians 12:9-But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Do you hear me boasting about my weaknesses?
No, not a bit.
Yet, I know I am weak. I just hide all that weakness under all my loud determination.
I am weak~ too weak to turn to God for help and comfort. I am weak~ too weak to trust that He will take care of our needs and us. I am weak~ too weak to turn to Him first and foremost and know that He has answers. I AM WEAK!! I am learning to boast about it.
So, I feel him loping off my old “I am Woman, I am strong” limb that doesn’t bear any fruit at all, and also pruning my “I trust in you because I have seen your faithfulness” so I can bear even more fruit. God is good!
Ah, such a good thing to have God gently and mercifully trim me up and down and all around so I can be more like His servant, and less like mine.
There’s no escape for me. I belong to Him. I am His and He is mine. So, I am in for some cutting off and pruning-big time!! He’s been cutting and pruining for years now.
He also plants me, and fertilizes me and…will He keep nasty bugs off me? I need to think about that one. BUT…
Garden, watch out, here I come! I will continue to weed you and prune you and all the hard things I need to make you beautiful too.
But I will also, plant beautiful things in you, fertilize you and make sure that nasty bugs leave you alone. BUG SPRAY!!!
You can trust me!
I will trust God, too. I say yes to all He wants to do in me and with me.
Grow me, God, grow me!!